Five hours of sleep last night, completely trying to change my career path, planning to move across the country and live in DC with him for two years, somewhere in there we’ve got to get married, somewhere in there we’ve got to graduate and I’ve got to survive the next three semesters of undergrad and two of grad on top of that, including 18 hours of computer science classes that I wasn’t originally planning on taking, tonight all I want is that special guy to come to bed with me and let me lie my head down on his chest and cry for just a little while before he tells me it’s all going to be ok and I fall asleep next to him, nice and warm and calm because he’s there to protect me, but we can’t even have that because on top of completely changing my education and career I have to figure all of this out with him four hours away.